Tasha.

Yeah I’m going to be one of those people who clogs up you dash with New Years Resolutions. Whatever. Sorry. Not sorry.

my goals for 2016:

• Read the Bible every day. 
• Spend less time dreaming about living and more time living.
• write music. play music. breathe music.
• keep organized. clean often. keep a planner.
• get off tumblr.

I feel like I’ve drifted from the version of myself that I’ve most cared for. I want to be her again. I want to be her and more. So as for reading the Bible every day, that is something she always did. And it was so good. And I can’t believe I’ve lost that in myself because it made my spirit so full. I’ve never been great at living as opposed to just dreaming, but I’m done just looking at pictures and thinking up ideas and not doing anything. I want to live my life fully, AND live it without having to take pictures to prove it to everyone else. Music makes my heart and soul so glad.  The time I’ve spent this year writing music has given me life, and I feel as if when I write about the things I experience it changes my perspective and it helps me grow. And I want to be better at guitar, and mandolin, and piano, and i want to learn ukelele (my cutie boy got me one for Christmas how nice is that!!) and be good and be confident and I want to sing more and work on my voice and performance. The girl I was that I loved was a singer. I want to be that again. I can’t say I’ve ever been organized, but that is something I need in my life, just because as of january of 2016, i’m going to kind of be a real grown up (well, not a teenager) and i just need to get my life together a lil bit more and keep my spaces cleaner and know when things need to happen and make them happen (I was supposed to go to the dentist two months ago???) .  As for getting off tumblr, I think this is important for me. And part of me really doesn’t want to because I like looking at pretty pictures of mountains and forests and watching girls encourage other girls and all that. But I spend too much time on tumblr that’s just a complete waste, and I honestly just have to realize that I can’t waste so much time scrolling and scrolling (and writing stupid text post crap like this). And I don’t think it’s good to fill myself with one sided opinions and pictures of peoples “perfect” lives that I don’t actually know anything about. I feel like I end up just angrier than anything scrolling through tumblr, and yes, sometimes I appreciate tumblr for giving the information that you don’t always hear in bigger news, but the mentality of people on here always having to be right is just so ugh. and i feel like i become one sided on things but i know it’s important to realize that there is ALWAYS more than one side. another thing is i mean i guess with social media in general people can portray themselves in a way that is completely different from real life. And I just need to spend more time in the real world than the social media world. 

So that’s about it from me. I don’t know if I’m going to delete my tumblr or just avoid using it, but I’ll probably make that decision in a few weeks. If we’re mutuals or you’ve followed me for a while or whatever, thanks for being cool. Also thanks to everyone i reblog pictures of mountains from. so yeah. tbh I’ll probably still be on for the next couple days, but come 2016 i really think it’s time for me to get rid of this thing. It’s just time.